I keep looking at this blog, my fleeting thoughts shared, my kinks exposed to the world. I read through my thoughts about my last poly relationship and continue to wonder where I am going with polyamory.
Our friends delivered some news this last week that their relationship is over. Hera has decided that she needs to find out who she is without the “burden” of her husband.
My stupid brain overthinks everything. Including whether me saying yes to having dinner with Aphrodite and her husband all those years ago lead to this exact moment in life. I guess in a way it did, but could saying ‘no’ have lead to a different outcome?
Logically, events in Aphrodite & her husbands life set things in motion without our first dinner date. They decided to open their relationship before meeting us. Certain indiscretions meant trust was broken long ago. I could not see this coming for either scenario, but in my head I am still responsible.
I have been trying to process the feelings spinning around inside my head. They go from sadness of a lost friend, to anger at that friend for hurting her husband. Will I ever be alright with the situation? Only time will tell.